I almost let my internal negative self-talk beat me down into thinking, "why bother?" anymore. The point in the beginning was to journal our life with a special needs child. But, what happened was, that life ended. Our daily lives look nothing like they did before.
Instead of deleting this blog - I started doing some reading. I got a grasp on thinking things through rationally. I learned a way of planning which direction I want to go.
Initially, I wanted to help others through my experiences when I started this blog. And, because I was just posting with my instincts and not really planning the direction I was headed, I stalled when I internally told myself that having this blog didn't make sense anymore - especially when I started reading through my blog. I hadn't read many of the posts since I published them.
I am trying to shut that thinking down. It has been a huge process for me. I have had a lot of thoughts while I have been working lately, trying to make sense of applying the information I learned to who I am and how I want to portray living a "special needs life". I am still planning and trying to make sense of everything going on in my head so that it comes out coherently.
I still want this to be a place to celebrate the special lives that have touched us, to find resources for living, and keep hoping for our future.
2 comments:
I'm glad you did not delete. There are a lot of memories journaled here and I know at some point the Lord will give you the specific direction for your blog.
Signingcharity had some good advice. Follow His direction and go with the peace in your heart. You'll know what to do.
What a wonderful welcome you'll have when you have your 'moving day'. Your daughter will be there, so excited and with open arms to throw around you. The comfort we have is she is happy and in the presence of the Lord...you will see her again! We have hope!
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